it actually comes from the past,
is it safe? you ask
i never answered anything you really wanted
i just kept telling you this story
hoping my words would some day be clearer and clearer*
he asked me again and again what i wanted i said just be you
then they came together asking me
what i really want and i said just be who you are
feel free to be who you are
is it safe to just be who we are? they asked
i couldn't keep this smile hidden
the following day he came too angry WHAT DO YOU WANT
is this enough? yelling at me
i said i want you to feel
i want you to be honest
i want you to move as the real you
YOU THINK I KNOW THE REAL ME
i touched his arm we, here to find it together
they were moving so fast
and then
they were motionless but not stable at all
i was waiting moving around
observing
my senses so tensed
he was out of breath
i saw him dazed
he was in a trance
my one hand on his chest
my other hand on his back
took some breaths with him
he looked at me
"just understood what you want or don't"
he walked away
(another smile)
following day
he was anxious
they were all anxious
we were all, so anxious
we were all, so anxious
they couldn't relax to what they would be
i couldn't hash my perspective
i couldn't hash my perspective
what you are is enough
i said
and they were in a freefall
(also me)
(also me)
they took my breath away
so thankful for the experience
of making them free to Be
and they kept demanding
more and more chances
of becoming available bodies
in a mindset that releases
if you trust
if you feel safe to just be who you are.
it actually comes from the future
is it safe? you ask
but, i could not force a perspective
so i didn't keep _
hoping this recalibration of
a fucked up certainty
to an available serenity.
