19.1.18

beige eyes

we ‘re alive ’n’ we don’t care
your purple hair;
oh, more than enough
your white pale skin;
oh, more than happiness 

needs no light,
no glitter,
no.
-just ,
just needs,
just needs and that is just a need.

as i build,
-i destroy
as i claim,
-i reclaim

and as you get to know
you are running
as you get to assume
you are running away
but if you knew
you would just want me dead*

simplicity is utopia
as long as the brain exists,
exhausts-
as long as we are talking,
we are descending into imbecility.

desire running
-but, also
ruining;
me
      us
you
              the world.

-sometimes i wonder
why we keep on struggling,
willing that much to change this world 
which we hardly ever understood/discovered/met (etc)
while,
we can create these little new  worlds,
between ;
your eyebrows and my toe
my tongue and your Diary, 
my asspects and your fantasy
your hands and my absence
                                                  meow

keep collecting memories
to share with that girl
and the other,
the Other
-oh, this Other.

what you wish;
i just don’t care
since i’m alive
you, Other.

and that,
is the achievement
i never asked anyone


to appreciate.
                                                              meow



*something in me, you like more than myself
so wanting to destroy me
seems fair and sincere, 
beloved mirror*